I dont know what it is but today has just been kinda a down one for me. At least inside. Do you ever have those days when you look at yourself in the mirror an you just get kind of frustrated? I was at church on sunday and this super sweet friend of mine and her husband visited. They are the neatest couple and she is one of those poeple that just exudes the beauty of Christ. I left that day happy to se her yet frustrated with myself. I know we shouldnt compare but I looked at her an couldnt help but think "why cant I be more like that?' I feel so dissappointed in myself the last couple days. Im not one of those women that is just a general blessing to all in her path an posses that gentle, sweet spirit. I know its part of my fault with not regularly reading my bible but the rest if I just am not one of those sweet gentle ladies of christ. with the last couple days ive more an more become determined to do something about it to the best of my ability. I am going to try an start every morining reading my bible BEFORE work. It gets tricky or harder because I get up at 5:45 every morning but I SO want to become an incredibly woman of God an most of time I dont feel like that. I am just hoping or seing other incrediblywoman with the gentleness an yet firm power of Christ radiating from them. So dear sisters, if you could pray for me I would so appreciate it. Help me not to get overwhelmed with my past mistakes and wallow in the fact an feeling that im not good enough. Please pray that I will grow into a mighty woman for God who stand high on mountain tops. Because at moment I feel like a hermit in a hole. I dont like being completly "open an broken"n front of people but the Lords been gently forcing me to be that way lately an you cant completely be changed/healed if you arent.
Thank you so much an I love you all!!!!
